A slow progress

It has been one week and one day since my surgery and my grandma, my parents, and my husband tell me I am doing really well. I am having trouble, I have my good days and my bad days and I feel like I am doing good and then I feel like I am doing bad. I am able to walk around pretty good with my walker and walk iffy without it, I can shower almost by myself; I only need a little bit of help washing my back and my incisions, I can also get myself in and out of bed and go to the bathroom by myself. I am a very independent person naturally, so I have a desire to get back to my independence! It is hard for me to ask for help, even though I know that I need it.

The last couple nights I have had trouble with my sleep. I have had some really bad leg pains, not just in the right leg but also in my left leg. The right leg is going to take me a while to get complete control back because that is the side that the surgeon went in on and the nerves were moved around and that large muscle was moved as well. Since the nerves and that muscle were moved around, the site around the incision and down into my thigh and my side are partly numb. I am having trouble moving that leg and walking on it, but I am trying. My left leg hurts from my fibro so that has nothing to do with the surgery, at least I don't think it does!

So far I guess when I look at the big picture, where God has put me and what could have happened, I am doing pretty good! I am so thankful for what God has allowed to happen in my life :) Although this week has not been the easiest so far, it has been a teaching week for me and Jon. God is teaching us how to be a couple while being apart, which is not easy! Thank heaven for technology! WE have talked several times a day, and he bought me an IPad yesterday! So we got to face time from the IPad to my IPhone! It was neat! I am excited about getting to play with it this weekend!

First Hospital Stay & Major Surgery

This week has been the first time I have had an major surgery. I must say, I was VERY scared! God was good as always and he provided as always and took care of me as always!

Sunday afternoon we traveled to Anna, Tx. to spend the evening with my grandparents since my surgery was early in the morning on Monday. I did not get any sleep that night, partly because I was afraid that I was going to oversleep my alarm, and partly because I was anxious about the operation! When the alarm went off at 3:30 a.am I shut mine off an snoozed Jon's. I eventually got up at 3:50 and decided I would wash my face and brush my teeth and get dressed. By time I was done with that Jon was awake and getting dressed. I was ready to spend some time in prayer and read my Bible before I went and got cut open! After all that, We loaded up the car and headed to the hospital.

Once we found the hospital and got me registered I called my mom. My mom prayed with me and talked with me to calm me down, I was very nervous, and told me she loved me and hung up. By then it was almost time for us to go up to the day surgery area and get situated to get ready for the surgery. Once we were in the holding room, and I had gotten changed, and into the bed and under the nice warm blanket, it was freezing in there!, I did some praying of my own in my head!Jon and I talked and hung out and waited until my grandma got there and then we hung with here. My grandma's pastor came by around 7 that morning and talked with me and prayed with all of us. It was so nice of him to come! After my iv was in and my blood was drawn, we waited some more. The doctor had an emergency so we had to wait on that. He finally came in and talked with me and very shortly after that the nurses came by and said they were ready for me.

It was around 9:15 or so when they rolled my bed out of holding and I told Jon I loved him. I watched the halls pass as we went to the OR, and when we got to the OR all I remember is the doctors and the equipment and them putting me on the table and that was all. Then I remember waking up in recovery and being completely confused and didn't know where I was! I couldn't talk because my throat hurt and I was saying things but the words were not coming out! Then I saw a nurse and it hit me where I was and what was going on! I was trying to ask for water but the words wouldn't come out, but fortunately the nurse understood me! I remember being very shaky and almost felt like I was having a panic attack and them having to give me something for it. Then around 1 p.m I remember looking at the clock and being in my room, and there were a bunch of people working on the tv, apparently the dvd player was not working!, and then I was in and out all day.

The days after that are very clear for me, but I know that I was in some serious pain! I did not want to move, or get out of the bed. the second day the therapist tried to sit me up and it made me so dizzy and sick that he had to lay me back down! I eventually was able to get up and move. and walk with help or a walker. I have very little strength in my legs. I also have very little balance right now. The doctor has me doing rehab for a couple weeks. I must say that my bladder is having a hard time recovering from the catheter! LOL I am not doing as well as the doctors would have liked, which is why I need to stay in Texas with my grandma for a while to do rehab. I am, however doing better than I thought I would be doing! I am able to do some things on my own, but of course there are things that are going to be hard considering I just had major back surgery! Praise the Lord that I am not paralyzed or anything worse!

Some neat things that did happen is that I did get to ride home from the hospital in a wheelchair transport! It was pretty neat! And I did get some Beautiful flowers! I also got a coloring book

a word finder book from the hospital! Also my grandma's pastor came to visit again after my surgery!

It has been such a blessing to have all the phone calls, texts and Facebook posts from my friends and family. I am truly blessed! Thank you to all! I especially want to thank my Husband, parents and my grandparents! They have been such rocks throughout this week and will be through the next coming weeks! It will be hard not being with my husband these next couple weeks during my rehab but being at my grandma's house will allow him and my parents to come visit! I love you all and thank you all for the prayers and please keep them coming!!